On this beautiful but chilly morning…

I ran outside.  (This was the semi-exciting thing I referenced in my last post.)

According to mapmyrun.com (thanks, Lindsay!), the distance was 2.13 miles.  However.  I definitely walked more than half of that, because A) my endurance level is apparently really quite pathetic, and B) those sneakers need to be replaced.  I had forgotten that I stuck orthotics in them, which squeeze my foot so that the shoe feels too small, but at the same time my heels are slipping out of the back.  Very strange, and not exactly comfortable!

This is very frustrating to me.  I’m not really averse to trying new things; I just don’t like doing them repeatedly, because then I won’t be able to use the novice excuse to explain why I suck at it.  That’s been an overriding theme in my life since I was a kid: I want to be really good at something.  Yes, there are a lot of things at which I can do okay… but just once, I want to know what it feels like to do something and dominate it.

Anyway, going out for a run turned out not to be quite as simple as it sounds.  It was very difficult to figure out a way to carry anything with me, which I needed to do because I wanted to go to the gym.  The one closest to my house doesn’t open until 9.00, and my DEXA appointment was at 9.30, so I had to drag all the way in to the gym I would have gone to if I went to work.  I decided that this time I’d try not eating beforehand, to see if that would get rid of the annoying side stitch.  It didn’t, really… I am obviously doing something wrong.

This also showcases extremely poor planning on my part, because I didn’t want to carry anything extra (though I clearly took my camera — priorities, people!), so I didn’t have any food with me.  Then when I got home, I dashed in the door for the car keys and dashed right back out to get to my appointment on time.  When I go for extended periods of time without eating, instead of thinking, Hey, you should be hungry by this point, so eating is probably a good idea, I tend to think, Hey, I wonder how many hours I can make this last!  It sets of a cacophony off oh-so-tempting voices.  Not literally, because though I am definitely not “all there,” I don’t actually have voices in my head!

Oh, yes, the DEXA.  It was fine, I guess; the doctor won’t get the results until the end of next week.  The technician told me that I have a beautifully straight spine.  I told her she could tell that to my crazy doctor, who decided when I was ten that I had a curvature of the spine, because that was his diagnosis du jour at the time!  (Hey… that rhymes!)

And I also paid something forward:

I know, I know, it’s a horrible picture… but there are forty minutes left in my parking meter.  There were forty minutes left in it when I nabbed the spot, so I guess the next person enjoyed some free time too.

When I finally got home again…

The bowl is actually the more exciting thing here!  I’ve been looking for a bowl like this (wide and shallow, as opposed to narrow and deep) for what seems like forever.  And it was only $1.99!  Inside: quinoa flakes, vanilla extract, Truvia, salt, and dried cherries.  Cherry vanilla quinoa flakes?

I don’t seem to eat anything but breakfast food on Fridays.  That’s fine with me…

Waffles with sugar-free chocolate syrup and banana slices.

Strange new shoes, which I wore to the library.

Don’t know what to make of the shoes; but apparently my posture doesn’t need correcting, given my “beautifully straight spine”!  So why does my back hurt??  Anyway, I went to the library to pick up two books that were on the hold shelf.  I came away with seventeen.  See why I can’t be trusted in a library?!

As per my system, this little whine / rant (subsequently to be known as a “whant”) is in a different text color… I knew that I wanted to run outside today, and I was quite eager to try it.  When I woke up this morning, I was exhausted.  I have no idea why, because I went to sleep pretty early last night … since I was exhausted then, too. This is exactly how I felt last year, before I went on the thyroid meds; no matter how much sleep I got, I was chronically exhausted.  This freaks me out, because aside for the annoyance factor of being tired all the time, if my thyroid is underactive, I am going to have a barely-existent metabolism.  Again.  This is, basically, my worst fears being realized.  And on top of that, this isn’t something about which I care to delve into details, but it will suffice to say that I am not exactly having the greatest of days in terms of body image.  Let’s just leave it at that.

This week we light candles at 7.40. It is only going to get later. This makes me very sad. Actually, no, “sad” isn’t the right word. It makes me feel anxious. And I hate it.

Our streak of lovely weather seems to have come to an end — we are expecting a “strong thunderstorm” tomorrow!  I’m actually quite glad, because I love it when it’s storming outside and I’m curled up in my bed.  That’s exactly where I intend to be until at least noon, so that should work out nicely.

Have a great weekend!

“The best of all medicines is resting and fasting.”
~Benjamin Franklin


13 responses to “Outside

  1. traynharder23

    love the shoes! =D time for me to get new ones.

    and breakfast foods all day? yummy!

  2. I love thunderstorms too. Unfortunately, we’ve been having all the unpleasant side effects of a storm (clouds, wind, cold) without any actual rain or thunder/lightning. Boo. I do believe the sun is starting to come out, though. Score.

    And I’m with you on the wide and shallow bowls. I love them, but they’re hard to find. Lately, I’m becoming more and more okay with eating out of the deeper and narrower ones though. I guess it’s all the same in the end.

  3. I love using mapmyrun!! And there is absolutely nothing wrong with breakfast foods in my book 🙂 Your waffle looks yummy!

  4. Waffles with sugar-free chocolate syrup and banana slices looks sooo yum!

    have a great weekend sweetie!!!!

  5. Jessica Zara

    Yeah! Congrats on the run 🙂 I have to say though, if you’re looking to run simply to dominate it then you’ll be disappointed. That’s not to say that you don’t have ability, only that running is something that only a very small handful of people can excel at to the point of winning races. Starting at any point in your life other than from a very young age always places us at a disadvantage and you just can’t beat yourself up for not being amazing at it straight away. I still get frustrated and annoyed at myself when people beat me, particularly because I train as much as is humanly possible, but the only way to make peace with running and get as much out of the sport as you can is to start competing primarily against yourself. You have no help, no coaches to guide and push you…recognise your achievement for what it is, and be happy with the improvements as they come.

    Not that you have to eat the gargantuan breakfasts that I do but please don’t keep trying to run without eating afterwards ~ I don’t want to read that you’ve collapsed! I appreciate that this was a one-off but if you want to get faster then you do need to re-fuel you know? Perhaps getting faster/stronger might be a good incentive to counteract the anorexic ‘voice’?

    Hope you enjoy your lie-in 🙂


  6. So glad you tried mapmyrun! I’ve never tried chocolate syrup on my waffles..the horror! You bet I will now!! I ordered new running shoes yesterday and I am so freakin excited!!

  7. Yay for running outside! I like to use a hydration belt to carry all of my stuff 🙂 (food, water, camera, money, keys, phone, etc.)

    I also want to be good at something. I am not, but at least I try a lot of different things!

  8. yea ive heard so much about those new shoes that firm everything up hehe. sounds pretty interesting! u must have enjoyed the fresh air- so nice!! and i love that the next person got extra parking min. good karma girl! xoxo ❤

  9. Your Cherry Vanilla Quinoa flakes sound delicious and definitely will have to try it! I usually just use blueberries, flax seed and a mixture of Truvia and Cinnamon although definitely want to try adding the Vanilla and Cherries.

    Thanks for sharing.

  10. “When I go for extended periods of time without eating, instead of thinking, Hey, you should be hungry by this point, so eating is probably a good idea, I tend to think, Hey, I wonder how many hours I can make this last!”

    see how the stress bult up beore you had this occur. try and beat the ED thoughts before they can happen. thyroids are scary things but i promise you they CAN be ovrcome. my first round of refeeding, i got a metaboism test b/c m bloodwork said my thyroid was shot and i had no hope but couldnt get medicine b/c i wasnt obese obviously. my metabolism tested at ‘burning’ 780 calories aday…a normal one is around1500…. that when igot to studying evolution & food and the imporane of fat in the diet, you NEED t add it, for bones, for hormones and for metbolism & thyroid. start with coconut oil, coconut milk and yogurts…butter is my favorite..

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  13. i’m getting a DEXA done soon too! eek. loveee running outside. are those MBT shoes? i have a pair but can only wear them with long long pants so i don’t look as strange, like i need to wear high heels to work out or something haha. nothing beats finding a parking meter with time left on it! seriously the little things just make my life. omg that ben franklin quote..NOT. i heard he was a vegetarian though? weird.

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