How about I skip over the lurid details, because it’s all in the past and there’s no sense in ruminating over things that have already happened? Instead, I offer you the bullet-point version of the past few days, during which I was ironically, but effectively, made to feel both elephantine and diminutive.
- Both the first and second seder began after 9.30 PM. And lasted roughly four hours. Do the math.
- Any plans of escaping for a simple walk outside were scrapped due to the relentless rain.
- My mom totally blew up at me on Tuesday (I think it was because I didn’t want to eat chicken) and informed me that I belong in a hospital, and that after Pesach that is exactly where I am going to go.
- Coincidentally, not that they’ve noticed, or anything, but I am not actually speaking with my parents at the moment, because my dad did something last night that really hurt my oh-so-tender feelings, and he will never admit that he might be even halfway wrong, so a rational discussion on the topic is out of the question.
I’m done whining. I just have to keep reminding myself that in a week from today, it will all be over.
Actually, in a week from today, I have class. My professor finally decided to answer my e-mail … but in his typical helpful fashion, his “advice” was to “look it up in X book.” Why, thank you. Now I know exactly what I’m supposed to do. I mean, really. Is this why I pay these obscene tuition rates?!
My apologies for the lack of visual stimulation in this post; I obviously could not use my camera over the past few days. Not that there was anything very exciting to photograph; if you’ve seen one matzah, you’ve seen them all. And there really isn’t much of a variety from which to choose; unless you’re strictly a meat-and-potatoes person, which I am not, finding something you actually want to eat is rather difficult during this holiday. I don’t even need to say that this is a source of enormous joy to an eating disorder… wheeee! Restriction by default! It’s too confusing for me to sort out how I actually feel about all this… but somehow, I think that the outcome can’t be very good at all.
Additional apologies for my absence in commenting; I think my Google Reader is in the triple digits, which is nearly enough to give me a panic attack, but I do hope to catch up with everyone!!
Have a lovely Thursday… tomorrow is Thursday, right?!… these holidays confuse me so much when it comes to keeping track of the days of the week.
“I’m not confused. I’m just well mixed.”