I disappeared there last night, didn’t I? … Yeah, I know, you had trouble sleeping because of that. 😉 This is my excuse:
And when I got home, I had to play the role of a good little student because one of my professors added another two articles onto the syllabus. That is not fair!! I was so thrilled that I finished my reading on Thursday night so that I would be able to have a weekend free of it, and then he had to go along and ruin it. That’s just not right. And then I needed to pontificate about it, when I have no idea what I am saying. It’s a skill, albeit one that is quite time-consuming. Anyway, I was terrified to go skating because I think the last time I did it was in high school, and I have had enough of falling on my face for the time being; and my knee is about fifty years older than the rest of me. After a few wobbly minutes, I was skating like I hadn’t had that years-long gap (not that I was ever the world’s greatest skater!) — and oddly enough, my knee hurt less while I was skating than when I walk! That might have a little something to do with the fact that I used a heating pad beforehand, but I don’t think so. I think my knee and my hip are just temperamental, and can’t decide whether they hurt or not.
Indulge me for a little rant about that for a moment… I am not good at sitting still. Even when I was little, my teachers always complained to my parents about that. No, I was never diagnosed with ADD or ADHD; focusing on a task wasn’t a problem, I just didn’t like being physically idle for very long. So it is killing me to “rest.” I will admit that I have not been 100% successful in that endeavor, but I definitely haven’t been moving as much as I normally would, and it is not going over well with me. And I should never, ever weigh myself; this here is why. I did today, and apparently I have gained weight since last week. Normally I would leave numbers out of this, but I need to illustrate exactly how ridiculous this situation is: I have gained a quarter of a pound. Which could very easily not actually be “real weight,” but that’s not the point here; the point is my reaction to it. That would be to catastrophize and find something that’s at fault so that I can “fix” it… either A) I am “eating too much,” or B) I am “not moving enough.” Well, yes. I thought that was done intentionally. That’s supposed to make it okay, right? … Apparently not. Oh, yes, it can also be because I didn’t weigh every single thing I ate over the past few days, because obviously that’s going to lead me to overestimate. Do you see how ridiculous this is?! I’m clearly very very bad at dealing with such things, but I’m just so frustrated. I’m always getting in my own way.
Time to try perfecting my protein pancakes again!
20g soy protein, 15g whey protein, 1/2 cup All Whites, about 1/4 teaspoon each baking powder, baking soda, and cream of tartar, Truvia packet, and a liberal amount of cinnamon. Still liquidy batter; still tasted eggy. They certainly look like pancakes, though, if a bit thin. It might just be the cooking method… I wish I could try the whey in the microwave! Well, at least I can try the soy on a griddle… or maybe I should just decrease the amount of All Whites. Hmm.
This next venture was a bit more successful… I finally tried egg whites in oats! (All Whites in oat bran, actually, but whatever.) I was wary of doing it, because it just seemed like it was so prone to being a disaster… but I did my homework first. 😉
Cherry pie oat bran! 1/3 cup oat bran, a pinch of salt, Truvia, vanilla extract, and sugar-free cherry pie filling. Plus a little more than 1/4 cup of beaten All Whites. It took forever to get them to stiffen, but it was definitely worth it! I never understood how oats could be “fluffy,” but I do now. Loved it!
P.S. Note the cherry bowl.
I’m pretty sure it isn’t microwave-safe, but I stuck it in there anyway after taking all of these pictures… and I didn’t die. Apparently.
Another “version” of the yogurt / muffin topper combination:
Vanilla yogurt, chocolate chocolate chip muffin topper, and crunchy peanut butter.
I think I am a “smooth” girl at heart! It’s just weird to me to have crunchy bits in peanut butter…
Quinoa, peas, corn, and zygote carrots. There was some Bragg’s involved here, too, which wasn’t bad at all, but I missed my garlic salt!
Tonight my mom and I went supermarket shopping for Purim. My sister came along, as did my (triggering) niece… I think that it is extremely strange for someone who is not disordered or a foodie to think of supermarket shopping as a fun outing, but whatever, fine, I’m the only one in this family with a “problem.” Right. Some “exciting” purchases were actually made, but they can’t be revealed for a few days yet. 😉 (Because I’m so sure you’re just dying of curiousity…)
Then we made it to the “pharmacy” right before they closed… I really hope this isn’t going to become a habit, because I’m kind of running out of body parts, but my mom was kind enough to sponsor this:
Pardon the awful photo; I didn’t feel like getting up to turn on the light!
Much to my dismay, the weekend is over, I am not young and spry again, and I have to go back to work tomorrow. BOO. But I hope you all have a great Monday anyway.
“This world is a comedy to those that think, a tragedy to those that feel.”
(I wonder what that makes me?! I think, but the world is most certainly NOT a comedy to me. How about you?)