On Saturday, it will be exactly three years since I went IP. It is due to the curse of being incapable of forgetting “significant dates” that I remember this. I’m trying to remember exactly what was so different about my life back then which landed me where it did, but I honestly have no idea.
My entire IP experience can best be summed up using these two words: Total Hell. I am pretty sure that I emerged from it with more mental hang-ups than I possessed when I entered, but it was so miserable that I seem to have somehow found a way of perfecting the balance between being thisclose to going back while not actually having to do that. So, in essence, am I just living a sort of “Groundhog Day” existence similar to the one I was living three years ago?! My, isn’t that a cheerful thought.
I don’t like “significant days.”
Last night I only woke up once; does that mean that I’ll actually sleep through the night tonight?!… I suppose stranger things have happened.
I found these earrings buried somewhere in my room… I bought them ages ago and never wore them. I guess that means they qualify as “new.”
Today was a very. long. day. Primarily because my wrist had me in complete agony. I really need to do something about this, but I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do, except for become a woman of means who lives a life of leisure. And that isn’t looking too likely, unfortunately.
I actually did get around to creating the “new recipe that popped into my head in a moment of brilliance,” which was kind of put on the back burner (no pun intended!) when certain other events interfered. But, I now present you with the individual vegan lasagna.
It involved one sheet of lasagna, tofu, re-hydrated TVP, pasta sauce, salsa, and this cheese:
First of all, this stuff stinks. Like cheese, actually, but since I don’t like cheese, I couldn’t stand that. And “it melts”?! Come on! It does not. Observe:
In my world, that isn’t exactly called “melting.” But whatever.
It looks close enough to regular lasagna, I guess. Except that the layers totally didn’t stick together. I think this requires some fine-tuning… but here’s a not-so-appetizing cross-section!
Oh, well. At least this never disappoints:
Not that you’d know this by the fact that I am sitting here and blogging, but I have an enormous mountain of reading to get through for school. How am I supposed to get it done when I feel exhausted just thinking about it?? And I need to come up with multiple topics for papers / projects. That’s practically worse than doing the project itself… and trust me, it’s pretty damn bad. I should stop freaking out and do something… I just feel completely drained and worn out from it, and I haven’t even started yet.
We have a pretty full house here this weekend… my aunt and uncle are coming for Shabbos again, and three of my cousins are staying here too. Eek. Just… eek.
Hope you have a great weekend!
If you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there.
~ Lewis Carroll