So it looks like I was right. Apparently, somehow my brain just knows if my body has lost weight, and for reasons I cannot figure out, that has a positive effect on my mood. As in, I feel “happier.” This is all incredibly frustrating for a million and one reasons.
Obviously, I did wind up going to see my nutritionist last night. She got this fancy-pants new digital scale that calculates BMI and all that jazz… I’m not very pleased about that, I don’t think! I absolutely don’t want to be a slave to the scale; I’d be beyond thrilled to never get on one again. But something just rubs me the wrong way about having someone else see my weight while I don’t. What do you think about “blind weights”? (Personally, in this instance, I think it might be counterproductive… because if I weigh myself, I’m probably just going to get all obssessive over doing it every. single. day. whereas if I just look at her scale, it would only be once a week. But what do I know, right?!)
Anyway, this would be laughable if it wasn’t so pathetic, but she practically doubled my calories again. Why am I such an impossible freak?? — There doesn’t seem to be any middle ground with me. Up the calories, I gain and don’t stop; drop them a little, and the process reverses itself. I don’t want to be eating a crazy number of calories, but I also don’t want to have to stress out about it! What I want is to be able to eat whatever, whenever, and not even think about it. Bliss.
Sorry about that. Moving on.
I’m still on a Finish the Peanut Butters crusade, though I suspect I’m fighting a losing battle. Good thing I don’t care that much about eating peanut butter that’s a couple of months “expired.”
I’d like to point out that much of the blue here is not actually makeup — it is because I am tired and sleep-deprived. At least it matches…
In the not-so-good-news department… look what came for me in the mail yesterday:
This is not such good news because when I replaced the battery and memory card, I immediately took a picture using flash… and it still smokes! Of course, I called Canon right away, and I’m sending it back to them again, but really… this is getting to be kind of ridiculous.
I found this in my basement — and I have definitely had one before. As I’m not a particular fan of hazelnuts, I don’t know why I have another one… but there weren’t TOO many hazelnuts in this one, which was good. I think I ought to try making my own Jocalat bars using no nuts at all… I’m guessing that I should use dried dates for this??
Texture-wise, it’s pretty much the same as the Texas BBQ flavor. Taste-wise, it’s got a little bit of a kick — not too much, but enough so that it’s noticeable!
Soba noodles (halfway through the package, Ellie!) with broccoli stir-fry vegetables… cold! I cooked the vegetables with soy sauce, but I stupidly tossed it with the noodles in a colander, so it definitely needed some more “liquid” … but it was still good!
On my way home today, I saw a really cool moon. I tried to take a picture of it, but this camera is obviously not meant for such things!
Maybe I am crazy — most people seem to think I am — but I am telling you that I can see craters on the surface of the moon!!
I am also extremely indecisive. I saw this in Target the other day, and since I live in thermal shirts and sweatshirts all winter long, I wanted to get a couple of them because I have an impossible time finding thermal shirts that fit properly and are comfortable! Don’t even ask what agonies were involved in deciding which colors to get… I wound up buying the wave crest and summer pink, but I was still thinking of exchanging them or whatever… and it makes no difference what color it is, since I’m going to be wearing a sweatshirt over it anyway!! How on earth am I supposed to make “big” decisions when I can’t even come to a conclusion with regard to such stupid petty things??
Actually, that could bring me to another whole post’s worth of verbal vomit. I’ll save it.
Have a great long weekend!