As I so often seem to do, I wanted to clear up something about my last post. I did not mean to imply that I am losing weight; I have no idea, because I don’t weigh myself, and I haven’t been weighed in a couple of weeks now. (My nutritionist was supposed to call me when she got back from her vacation so that we could set up an appointment, which would generally be on Wednesday. She didn’t call; fine, she has a life that doesn’t include me, which I completely understand, and so she could have forgotten. So I finally called her. No answer, so I don’t know if I’m seeing her tomorrow or not, and I really wish I did know! Though I’m feeling very much not like going. Sigh.) What I meant was that I worry that I am, because I’m not feeling jump-off-a-bridge depressed, and as a general rule, that tends to happen when I’ve lost weight. I just hate that I feel like I have to second-guess myself for not feeling suicidally depressed!! How depraved is that?!
A little review…
Yogi granola crisps in the the mountain blueberry flax flavor. I liked these, even though they weren’t as sweet as the strawberry crisps. That isn’t a bad thing at all, and believe me, it’s not short on sugar either!! It just doesn’t taste as “sickly sweet” or artificial as the strawberry.
A necklace, because why not?
So I was supposed to meet my friend for lunch today, like I said yesterday. I was already on my way there when she called and canceled on me. While I do understand that work happens, it was still annoying. Anyway… I had to buy lunch and take it back to work with me. Rawwr.
(Romaine, kidney beans, broccoli, mushrooms, croutons, and raspberry vinaigrette… prior to tossing, obviously!)
I got another e-mail from Canon — repairs on my camera are complete and it was shipped out to me yesterday. It should be arriving tomorrow! Speaking of tomorrow… I’m already bored to tears from this departmental meeting. And while I’m on the topic of work — today we got our yearly performance evaluations. Mine was positive. Which was a relief, because I’m always feeling wholly inadequate at work, and this does help a little bit in alleviating that for a while.
And on the issue of alleviation … I really am in love with Klonopin. I slept through the night last night for the first time in months. Of course, it was only about five and a half hours, and it’s not like I wasn’t tired anyway, but still — I went to bed, fell asleep, and didn’t get out of bed again or even wake up until my alarm rang. That was lovely.
Not so lovely: the 69-degree pool. I asked the lifeguard if I would be able to wear a wetsuit in there, because they have some really crazy rules regarding swimwear. He said that would be fine… and the craziest part is that I’m actually considering it!! As a frame of reference, the surface temperature of the water in which I went diving in the Dominican Republic was around 80 degrees. And as those of you who saw my Facebook pictures could probably tell, I was cold! Wetsuit and all.
My mind is drawing a blank on anything else right now, so I will leave you in peace.
Have a fabulous Wednesday!